Four Years

And so it has been.  Four years since I wrote my first and only post for this blog.  I actually forgot I had started this page and I honestly don't even remember what Hele Hana Kula means. Ha!

What happened? Well, a week after we learned about the potential church plant in Kauai, chronic illness hit me like a freight train and I've been sick ever since.  Four years.  Four years of God allowing me to suffer. Extreme fatigue and blinding brain symptoms. Aches and pains. Confusion, anxiety and discouragement. Four years of vomiting sin and returning to it. Four years of learning everything I never wanted to know about the body, mind and spirit. Four years of pleading with the Lord for healing and answers. Oh me of little faith.

Four years ago I prayed that the Lord would prepare the hearts of the people that would go to the island of Kauai to plant a church.  Maybe it takes four years.

Well, the church has been planted! Praise God.  We are not a part of it although we do give a little amount each month to help the family that is out there.  Grateful for the 3 families that have given up everything to go and plant a church in a very hard place.  It has not been an easy.

It's New Years Eve. Tomorrow is the new year 2020. I'm home sick but I love this time of year.  New starts and new goals are always so refreshing. I have lots of goals! Health goals. Parenting goals. Business goals. Family goals. Etc..

 2020 should be an exciting year! I'm hoping to heal more this year.  I have a great healing plan in place just working on raising the money to afford it all. Last year I made a big gain in my health journey.  I've had a set back this last month which is very discouraging but think I know why and I know to keep going.  I've learned so much. God willing I'll be working with a new practitioner. Coffee enemas anyone??

  

God has been patient and kind to me.  Since I can remember I have always prayed that the Lord deal gently with me because I fear Him. I know what He can do and that can be scary. Sometimes chronic illness does not feel like a gentle way to deal with someone but I know He has been gentle. He has been good to me because the bible says He has. He takes suffering and brings forth good.  The greatest example of this would be Jesus. From the greatest evil came the greatest good. I know He does this for me too.

What does God have in store for our family in 2020?  Healing? I hope so! A move to a tiny island in the middle of the ocean? Maybe! Maybe not. Who can know His plans. Only Him. So lets prayerfully wait and watch.

Happy New Year!